Life Is A Choice

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“Life is a choice,” aku yakin hampir setiap dari kita pernah bahkan sering mendegar kalimat tersebut diucapkan, oleh sahabat yang sedang memberikan kita saran misalnya, atau mungkin oleh seorang inspirator yang sedang membawakan sebuah seminar. Klise, tapi memang demikian adanya. Selama jiwa masih di dalam raga, kita akan tetap dan terus dihadapkan kepada pilihan-pilihan, dan di sini lah kita mau atau tidak mau harus menentukan/ memutuskan apa yang kita inginkan dalam hidup. Thus, life is a choice, and it really is.

Seperti yang pernah aku tuliskan sebelumnya, keputusan dalam hidup kita beragam, tergantung tingkat kerumitannya terkait dengan besar kecilnya dampak terhadap kehidupan kita. Keputusan untuk menentukan masa depan misalnya, sering kali manusia akan cenderung lebih memusatkan pikiran dan energinya untuk lebih berhati-hati dalam urusan ini. Menentukan mau lanjut ke sekolah mana, mengambil jurusan apa bahkan setelahnya akan bekerja sebagai apa, tidak dipungkiri pertaanyaan-pertanyaan ini seakan menjadi lembah kegalauan bagi para pemuda, tidak terkecuali aku.

So, the reason why I wrote this is that I just wanna share my story who often be hesitant to choose something for my life. Well, setelah berhasil menentukan jurusan untuk belajar di sebuah kampus pun ternyata aku masih harus menentukan untuk mengambil konsentrasi di jurusan tersebut. Mungkin untuk sebagian besar yang memang sudah yakin akan keputusannya hal ini bukanlah masalah, but then it’s a big deal for me as I am not sure what I really want to go with.

Keputusan yang sering berganti sering menjadikan kita terjebak di titik yang semakin menerpurukkan kita. As what happened in my case, firstly, I chose B as my concentration major, but then in the middle of the journey, I was into the A choice. When the time to choose was getting closer and closer, I became hesitant to do even more than before. Then, what I did toward that?

A lot of suggestions I accepted from my close friends, seniors, and even lecturers about my hesitancy, and I can say that the main answer is that I have to choose the one that makes me comfortable so that it won’t place me in difficult situations later. In other words, I have to be honest toward my own self which was not easy to do. why?

Let me summarize a little bit shorter to help you understand easily about my case. I was imagining myself choosing the A option and living happily with the choice, and of course, I was into the subject (at least I found something fun about it). However, the marks of the B option subjects I got so far are better than A. Wait, automatically it made me hesitant. Then, a bunch of questions appeared in my mind, I even couldn’t let my eyes close calmly during that time.

Now, I’m really telling you the key. I hope this is gonna be useful for you if you’re in the same situation as me some days ago. The only thing I did at that time was honestly talk to myself and observe myself objectively. I put myself as another person who looked at myself. I tried to compare whether what I thought about myself was really revealed by my behavior. That time, I was thinking that I was into the A Option. Then I tried to confirm it through how I behaved toward it. Surprisingly, I found myself still the same who is still into B than A. I might be a little bit into A, but I find myself with more capability in B. Why I said so?

This is gonna be a little bit longer, but I’ll try my best to make it effective. Well, after I found the fact, I tried to accept my condition that I’m not into A, instead, I’m more into B. For a disclaimer, I’m a person who wants to do something happy in my life by being honest with myself. Furthermore, I also believe that talent or capability plays a role in everything we do. Let’s make an analogy, a hard-working singer with a brilliant talent I believe will always be better than a singer who works hard but has no talent. (you may be on the other side, but that’s my view).

Here, my decision is based on which major I have more capability. Why? Simple, I want my next step to become easier. Moreover, after I observed myself more, I realized that none of the majors I deadly adore. I’m just a person who will try my best on every challenge face by myself. Thus, I'm NOW PRETTY SURE THAT I’ll COME WITH B.

Finally, I’m coming to the end of this long writing. I hope this helps you all who have the same problem. Remember to always be honest to yourself, accept everything about yourself objectively, and then decide the choice based on your beliefs. Let’s live our lives without any regret! Have a nice day, everyone!